It's ALIVE!

Ah, you all thought the blog was dead, but it was just dormant.
For a while there I needed to cope with the world in which we live, to face the ugliness that we call "us", you know, the one that precedes "them"?  I couldn't write because all that came out was anger and frustration at the hatefulness that seethes through our society. That's not what I want my blog to be about, and if I couldn't say anything that I would want to read myself, I wasn't going to write.

The problem is that I need to write, there is just some force within me that drives me to write.  I try to imagine who I would be in a society before reading and writing became common, and I can't. The roles for women were pretty circumscribed, and unless your family was noble, the females weren't educated, and even then it wasn't a guarantee.  My family was not noble. My fate would have been to be a spinster in someone else's house, a farmer's wife, or a craftman's wife, the option of the strange woman at the edge of the village, who was assumed to be a witch, would have been possible too.


The other thing to imagine is who am I in this society? What is my role here? I can read and write.  I need to read and write, but to what purpose? To entertain a few of my friends online or a greater good?

I teach.  Many days the lessons seem superficial, at other times some of the kids really seem to understand what I am trying to Say, with a capital S. When it clicks, it is glorious, when it doesn't it's just a day at work and I go home.

What is it that I am trying to say? The world is fascinating,

Humidity

complex,

Hickory bark

beautiful,

Frost on car

mystifying,

Pine cone in leaves

  wondrous

Box turtle

 and joyful

Land Art

Googly eyed snacks

and that we need to bring these great ideas, concepts and beauty to the forefront. But how?
Ah, my conundrum.

I have been doing some reading to get me out of the paralyzed thought pattern that I have been in since November 2016, some of my recent reading is about joy and nature, two books that aggregate the science on two of my favorite, connected, topics. I highly recommend both books.


The Nature Fix
Joyful

Now to fill this rut and move on.